Website work ongoing.

The hurricane didn’t affect my website dude at all, and I am very fortunate that he hasn’t found a full-time job yet down there so he has more free time on his hands than he normally would.  So he’s monkeying around with stuff. I realize I haven’t written any new Aum fiction in quite awhile and I am sorry about that.  Technically I still have some material I wrote earlier this year that I could post but I want to leave myself a little wiggle room so I’m going to hold onto it for now.  But let me just take a second to emphasize that I am still super jazzed about getting my own site with a truly customized look.  It’s awesome.

I am not sure of what I want to do with this blog after my current WordPress subscription runs out in the spring.  I don’t want to pay the fee for the wilder-dreams domain name anymore but there are a couple posts that people have linked to on music forums (specifically the review I did of Poets of the Fall’s Jealous Gods and the amateur journalism on I Fight Dragons) that still get some hits.  I would like people to be able to find those posts… but they don’t really belong on AUM = HERE, and I am pretty sure that if I were to downgrade to make this blog free, the forum links would be broken.  Plus I don’t really want most of the rest of the content I made from before the Aum posts to be up for perusal anymore.  I think I got a little too personal.

Anyone have any thoughts on how to preserve the good music posts?  If I could find a good home for them I could always leave an updated link as a follow up post in the forums that link to them…

Still working on the website.

Let’s all think supportive and protective thoughts about my website dude, Mark.  He has recently moved to Pensacola, Florida (US… Earth… Sol system… Milky Way… Universe).  If his life is shattered by Hurricane Irma and its aftermath, he will certainly have better things to do with his time than continue to program databases for AUM = HERE to make it easier for me to post content.

In addition to thinking supportive and protective thoughts, let’s all actually provide some resources to help the situation.  I don’t have a lot of $ to spread around but I do plan on donating some blood.  It may not leave my municipality but hey, donating blood is helpful as long as one is clean of bloodborne pathogens and not anemic, right?


Migration of content continues…

Fair warning, I am not going to be putting very many more entries up on this blog.  The transition to the new website, AUM = HERE, is almost complete in terms of content.  There are still several features I want to implement re: functionality, such as searching, commenting, bonus content for Patrons that involves logging in, but at some point this month I am going to start adding more content for Topaz Bond under the “current” tab on the main site and no more will be added here.

I am kind of on the fence whether people who are not my Patrons will be able to “subscribe” (read: get emails of the new content every week) to the new site or not.  If you have been reading the Aum stories on a regular basis and would like to weigh in with an opinion about this question of subscriptions, I am open to your thoughts.

Placeholder, Part 2: Revenge of the Placeholder

Haloo again, reader!  My online summer course through the local community college has ended.  I received a 4.0 grade and am on my way to getting the permanent position this professional development allows.  I am both saddened and excited to announce that I did not return to my production schedule this week as I had planned to when I last posted; saddened, because I made y’all a promise on June 25th… but excited, because the reason I did not write anything is that I have been designing a new website for the Aum stories!  I have staked out the domain of, but hold your horses; there’s nothing visible there yet.  The front page of the site is almost done and it’s being hosted on a friend’s server currently.  Curious about what I’m coming up with?  My patrons on Patreon will have access to view the site as I construct it, as well as the opportunity to give input to the final product.  I haven’t decided yet as to whether or not I am going to be posting any more content on this blog before making the transition to the new site, but I will keep you informed.  Thanks for your patience.


Haloo, reader!  In the months of June and July 2017, in addition to working full-time in early childhood education, I am taking a college course for my professional development in that field.  I will not be able to keep up with my weekly production schedule for the Aum stories during this time.  Accordingly, “Topaz Bond” is going on hiatus until the first week of August.  I will take this post down when I resume my production schedule.  Stay tuned!

Lyn’s Essays: On Marriage (Year 3)

I can remember thinking, more than ten years ago, that I wanted a relationship like the one described in the Liz Phair song “Favorite”, in which she compares her lover to a well-worn pair of underwear.

Don’t look sexy, but it just feels right

not too dirty and it’s not too tight

why I never threw it out, I’ll never know exactly why

keep it in a drawer beside my bed

it’s faded pink now, but it used to be red

starting to fray at the seams, but I know that you still love me like you did, like before

like we will be doing it once more

In Year 3 of marriage, I think I got my wish.  Joel and I are comfortable with each other now in a way I’ve never experienced before and have trouble describing.  I wouldn’t say we finish each other’s sentences, but we do follow each other’s train of thought, and often I notice Joel pointing out something I was about to say.  We don’t argue the way we did when we were starting out.  We know each other’s signals and nine times out of ten, when one of us starts to push a button and the signals begin, the button-pusher says “Hey, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you, let’s try this a different way?”  It’s been long enough since I raised my voice at Joel that neither of us can remember how long it’s been (I just asked him, no idea).

To use another clothing image, the relationship is like a good pair of jeans.  Great for everyday wear, and broken in.

In some ways, I feel like we still act like it’s new.  We talk about our love most days, often more than once in a day.  Joel still does ridiculous things like goofy dances and acting out stories to get me to smile.  I still tease him.  And from an economic perspective, we’re still behind the curve – neither one of us has made much career advancement.  We’re in a one-bedroom apartment with a cat while our friends are buying houses and starting families.  Spiderbee continues to buzz out of reach.  But every night we tell each other how we feel, what we are grateful for from each other, what we need from each other, and what we are sorry about.  And every day, we are in love.

Leave you lying on the bedroom floor

leave you hanging on the bathroom door

take you for granted, but I’ll always know exactly where you are

lost you once, you were hard to find

got you back, you didn’t look like mine

thought we were falling apart, but you make me feel so pretty like you did, like before

like we will be doing it once more

Oh baby, know what you’re like?  You’re like my favorite underwear

It just feels right (you know it)

Oh baby, know how you feel? You feel like my favorite underwear

and I’m slipping you on again tonight

rock me and roll me, hold me tight

tear me apart and make me new… like you always do.

Here’s to another year together.